My life journey

from lost in the outside to finding myself on the inside

from perfectionism to optimalism & vulnerability

from masculine “doing” to embracing feminine “being”

Finishing high school was a release for me. I felt free and empowered to live life on my own terms. I set out on adventures across the globe, lived in numerous countries, learned many languages, climbed every mountain I came across and loved the many encounters with people from around the world. I studied various subjects and degrees, tried out different sports and learned new skills in very different jobs, ranging from a mountain hut helper in the Swiss Alps to an Academic Manager in China.

I was a free spirit floating through the universe - always with a smile on my face.

Adventure calling.

When I was 13 I distanced myself from my family and myself spiritually, which left a hole deep down within me.

In the following years I built up a wall of protection around that hole. I was an A-student, very sporty and smart - and that was the picture of perfection I wanted people to see. All the other aspects I disliked about myself ended up hidden within my hole. Although my imperfect darker side kept visiting on some days, I silenced it through numbing behaviour. Sports, food and feel-good movies enabled me to suppress more negative emotions. I thought that by suppressing them, they would disappear. I was often stuck in my head and increasingly disconnected from my body, my cycle and intuition.

Hi, I am Selin.

When I got accidentally pregnant, I felt lost and out of control. I was consumed by fears and during emotional lows I painted my life in black. I put myself under a lot of emotional pressure and wanted to keep my independence and freedom at all cost. Having a baby did not fit into my life plan and even though there was an incredible support network around me, I was not in a space to accept it. Week 8 I lost the baby - which felt ultimately freeing, but at first very heavy.

Not knowing how to find more guidance, I continued with my life. I had been building up a career in the humanitarian sector, slowly climbing up the ladder. It had always been a dream of mine to work in this sector - arriving there made me see that I had built up a lot of expectations. I had imagined that if I arrived there, I would feel enough and more satisfied.

From the outside it looked like the perfect life - and yet deep inside there was always something missing. And so during 10 years I changed jobs, countries, boyfriends and hobbies, which always brought me momentary satisfaction – until the feeling of lack and not being in the right place started creeping up.

I found it hard to connect to my intuition and was indecisive about every major decision in life - and so I kept floating around, hoping that the answer would one day magically pop up. I only committed half-heartedly to relationships and job engagements - always thinking that something better would come along.

Expectation versus Reality.

Is this all there is to life?

Not being able to pinpoint how to fill the void within me, I started becoming more numb and even more disconnected from my body and my emotions. I started believing that maybe there was not more to life than I already had. I asked myself:

“Is this it?”

Maybe this was it. Maybe I just had to accept it.

In summer 2019 a tragic loss woke me up from my numbness. The sudden death of a close friend brought me face to face with the finiteness of life. Moving through the pain of loss made me reevaluate everything about my life. I had this clear feeling that there was more and that there was so much potential within me that I haven’t been able to release yet. I knew I had so much more of value to give.

Every experience teaches me something.

But I could not figure out what to change in my life. So I decided to do what I had always done: leave and look for a new adventure. I moved to Lebanon to work as a ski & snowboard instructor and initially was inspired by my new environment. Yet, as time passed, I became increasingly numb and disconnected from myself and the people I care about.

A wake up call.

Seeking peacefulness.

In March 2020 my path of seeking brought me to a yoga teacher training in India. I had been practicing yoga & meditation on and off since 2015 and loved the calming effect it had on my mind. During that program I realized, however, that I had only ever touched the surface. By peeling off layer after layer of expectations, perfection, doubts, ego and numbing, I was able to go much deeper. What I found was the enoughness and acceptance I always tried to find on the outside. What I found was more clarity and real freedom to just be – to be the whole of me.

It has always been there - within me.

The liberation, the range of emotions and the inner freedom I felt were empowering beyond words. I felt complete and completely immersed in bliss and the beauty of life. I felt like I could fly across the room. I laughed from the bottom of my heart. I connected with people on such a deep level. I cried a lot and was shocked by my loss of integrity towards myself and others. I was ready for a major shift.

By reconnecting with spirituality, I reconnected with myself and found clarity. I realized that what I had always been looking for, was within me. Home, love, worth and acceptance had been within me all along.

My journey of growth - of being lost and found - continues. I have grasped a taste of real freedom and yet it is a practice I work on everyday. Every moment is a decision for the new me, the me I want to bring into this world. I still struggle with indecisiveness and commitment - and yet I know that the answer is within me. I am healing wounds of the past and practicing acceptance of the whole of me. I am practicing to lean into vulnerability and let my whole self be seen. I am practicing to confront and let go. I am practicing to be present in this moment and to be connected to myself. I am practicing radical honesty and acceptance. I am reconnecting more and more to the power of my feminine side and love discovering wisdom from different cultures.

I am always working on reconnecting with myself, the present moment and embracing my journey with all its beauty, craziness and ups & downs. Life is beautiful, challenging and one amazing journey of growth.

My journey continues

“It is good to have an end of journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.”

Ernest Hemingway

Teaching & Coaching

Certified Yoga Teacher YTT-500+
- trained in India & online
- specialised in Yin, Vinyasa, Meditation, Ayurveda, Pain Relief, Boost your Immune System, Yoga Nidra, Yoga for Injuries & Voice Coaching
Certified Life Coach & Yoga Life Coach
- Emotions Coach
- Women’s Circle Facilitator
Certified Hypnotherapist
Certified Ski Snowboard & Cross-country skiing Instructor
Swimming Instructor
University studies:
- BA in Multilingual Communication
- MA in Intercultural Communication (cum laude)

More about me

Lifestyle & Mindfulness

I strive to meditate and journal daily.
I love sports of all kinds, particularly in the mountains.
I live in the Swiss mountains and in the mountains is where I feel most alive & present.
Nature is what brings me peace and humbleness.
I practice to feed my body with natural food that brings it energy.
I practice gratitude and listening.
I practice simplifying and living a life-style close to nature.

Languages & Travelling

I am passionate about languages and exploring the world.
I speak 6 languages fluently (German, French, English, Spanish, Chinese, Italian) and continuously learn new ones (currently Sanskrit & Lebanese)
My travels have brought me to many beautiful corners of this world and I can’t wait to see more.
I lived in 7 countries, which taught me a lot about diversity and different ways of living.